Made it!

Contrary to the post title, I haven't made it as a mom yet...still waiting to see if I can live through this experience. lol

I haven't blogged in so long that I forgot the web address of this page. oops! So...I'm a new mom now. Baby is out, pregnancy is over and I'm at the beck and call of my Avery meatloaf. Honestly, pregnancy was a walk in the park compared to motherhood. No one ever talks about the hardships and horrors that await you with the sleepless nights, raging emotions, and anxiety. Yet, no amount of warning or stories could have prepared me for the tsunami of change and transition that this little itty bitty being brought into our lives. However, as Avery is approaching her 8 weeks, I am definitely falling for her more and more every day as she woos me with her generous smiles and coos.

Time does seem to fly faster with a baby and the scary first 4 weeks seems like it was so long ago. I was eagerly looking forward to her 100 days and realize that literally in about another 4 weeks she'll be 3 months. 3 months already???!!! The general consensus from all parents that I've talked to is that everything drastically changes for the better at 3 months...or 100 days for us Koreans. :) Its a short distance away so I definitely am seeing the light at the end of the tunnel.

This week, my big challenge that I'm facing is sleep training. I might get a lot of criticism from some moms for training a 7.5 week old and letting her cry it out, but this is seriously for the sanity of the whole family. Today was day 1 and I was terrified that she would be stubborn like her papa and cry for hours on end, :) but fortunately, she's forgiving like her mama and cried for a whopping 26 minutes. I know that's considered to be good for a first time CIO-er, but every single of those minutes were like nails on a chalkboard! At one point, I went outside and started organizing my trash...

This is going to be a long week, but hopefully the pay off for all our suffering will be worth it in the end. I'm so sorry Avery!!! I promise I'll make it up to you with lotsa hugs and kisses when you wake up!! xoxo